First of all, I wish to thank God for family and friends.

Thanks to my husband, son, daughter and our three granddaughters, Leah, Evie and Olivia.

Ashamed Cont

Shame on a daughter who hurt and abused us,

to gain power and control over us,

 Yet these acts are often ignored and go unpunished; a mother, a father, the ultimate pain,

Caused by a daughter who refuses to take any blame.  What brings out this rage in a daughter?

 Injecting such venom from anger goes wild,

 The tears of a mother, the dismay of a father,

 Not willing to share, the despair,

 And the secret they both bear,

The hitting, the kicking, the verbal abuse,

 Experience every day; the most common and the most deadly is verbal abuse Inflicted by a child we called our daughter.  

Ashamed Cont

Wounds of the heart are too hurt to heal; please help us; this is not real.

 How do we restrain our daughter?

And stop her from injecting more pain. We’ve done nothing wrong to warrant such a response; all we are guilty of is giving her Our unconditional love; we never thought that our love and devotion to her would cause us such needs.  Oh God, are we to blame? Laws have been passed to protect our children from us, yet there are no laws to protect us from parent’s abuse.  Too ashamed to confide,

 In our families and friends, We suffered years in silence, Often making no complaints.

 Ashamed Cont

Now, our whole world is in turmoil,

 From a daughter who is playing havoc on us,

 The grief we feel is now actually real,

 Even now, the wrath of our daughter,

 Is oh, so surreal, from the hands we have cradled,

 And kept warm inside, what anguish has invaded?

 The heart of our child, we once thought was so,

 Loving and so kind, how many more years?

 Must we try to survive? Her hostile behaviour,

And her cold staring eyes, will we wait for the day when we cannot take any more, or will we wait for the day when we cannot wait any more?

I SAY A LITTLE PRAYER FOR YOU

From the moment I saw you, I quietly said a little prayer, and my days began with me calling out your name; for some unknown reason, I knew then that you might need me. I am sorry I failed you; God has taken over my job: to love, protect, and keep you safe from harm. From that moment, I knew my prayer was meant for you; Evie Mai was born 23 weeks, three days, weighing 1 lb and three ounces. 

THEY LEFT ME JUST WHEN I NEEDED THEM MOST

When I was born, my mother walked out on me.

When I was one, my dad rejected me. When I was two, no one wanted me. When I was three, I climbed trees. When I was four, I was loved no more. When I was five, I had no life. When I was six, I was always sick. When I was seven, I wished I was in heaven. When I was eight, I began to stay out late. When I was nine, I committed a crime. When I was ten, I went home now and then. When I was eleven, I thought of heaven. When I was twelve, I knew there was a hell. When I was in my teens, I had a dream.  They left me just when I needed them most.

ELEMENTS 

How lucky are we to have these elements from thee?

We have the earth so we can live,

We have rain to overfill our rivers and drains. We have snow, don’t you know? We have light to shine on our delights. We have thunder, so we do not surrender. We have fire to light up our desire.

How lucky are we to have these elements from thee?

DEATH

Death is only a dream.

Death is what we might call a ravine.

Death is like a swing, swinging in the breeze. 

Death is like a revolving door, throwing us onto the floor.      Death is a wish we wish would go away.

Death is your reflection, casting back at you.

 YOU TAKE 

    You plunder my essence, leaving me bereft of riches.

    You take my strength.  So, I’m too weak to take my revenge.   You take my good looks and turn me into a cook.

    You take my name to justify your games.  You take and you take without giving me a break.  You take my heart and rip it apart. You beg, steal and borrow like there's no tomorrow.

 You have no heart, and you have no soul. You have no grace; you are a disgrace. That is why I have to leave this place.